OK, let's face facts. There are people in this world who seem to think they have nothing better to do with their lives than sit around and upset other people. There are also other people in this world, like me, who think they are scummy little people who need to be put in a bin somewhere. Therefore, I will say this and this alone: Get the fuck out of my life, stay out of it, and stop trying to piss off my friends because you can't get to me.
Now, onto more interesting topics. Today I saw the PGCE lady (aka Sue Armes) and she said I stand a good chance of being accepted but I need to get some nursery observation stuff behind me first, so I've been emailing round all the local nurseries and asking if they'll take me on for a couple of days so I can be nosy and ask lots of silly questions.
As well as this, my pageviews have started to go up on some of my blogs! A Witch's Musings and Time To Cook still need pageviews as they're getting a bit lonely. I know there's a lot of blogs and things to read, but it would really help me out if you could give them a read.
Thanks and ciao x
The Story Of My Life.
Tuesday, 29 May 2012
Monday, 28 May 2012
My chat with the psychologist.
Just so that you're all updated on my goings-on with the psychologist, here is the latest news, and guess what? It's something we all knew anyway. Yup, I HAVE ASPERGER SYNDROME!
Aint it great? After all that, and all sorts of horrid people having a massive go at me, accusations of lying ... turns out I was right, suckers!
Ciao x
Aint it great? After all that, and all sorts of horrid people having a massive go at me, accusations of lying ... turns out I was right, suckers!
Ciao x
Wednesday, 23 May 2012
Summer's Nearly Here!
Hello my lovelies! Gosh, what lovely weather we've had today eh? Jonathan and I noticed that our garden chairs were more than a bit grubby, so we spent 3 hours today bleaching, scrubbing and rinsing them. It felt so wonderful to be out in the fresh air, with the strains of Classic FM floating through the air. As per usual, Jon and I had so much fun doing it - we laughed and joked about it all, especially when I accidentally bleached my shoes and turned them orange! Apparently, Tesco value bleach plus black canvas shoes equals orange spots! Oh well, at least I now have funky shoes!
As well as this, I've got an appointment to see my university's PGCE lady tomorrow morning, an appointment to see my psychologist about my autism (appointment number 3 haha!) and a house viewing! Phew, looks like I'm gonna be busy this week, huh? Ah well, at least there's the sunshine to enjoy - makes me feel so much happier when I can look out of my window and see the sun instead of grey clouds and miserable weather.
This weekend I'm working again, which is great as it brings in more money to go into my savings account for our house fund. So far I've got £250.66 and am hoping to add some more on Friday when I get paid, yay! Hopefully with interest the amount will keep rising and rising so that we can put a reasonable deposit down and need less of a mortgage.
Anyway, that's it from me.
Ciao xx
As well as this, I've got an appointment to see my university's PGCE lady tomorrow morning, an appointment to see my psychologist about my autism (appointment number 3 haha!) and a house viewing! Phew, looks like I'm gonna be busy this week, huh? Ah well, at least there's the sunshine to enjoy - makes me feel so much happier when I can look out of my window and see the sun instead of grey clouds and miserable weather.
This weekend I'm working again, which is great as it brings in more money to go into my savings account for our house fund. So far I've got £250.66 and am hoping to add some more on Friday when I get paid, yay! Hopefully with interest the amount will keep rising and rising so that we can put a reasonable deposit down and need less of a mortgage.
Anyway, that's it from me.
Ciao xx
Monday, 21 May 2012
Recent updates.
Since I've been taking a bit of flak for my apparent "lies" about my autism, I thought I'd set the record straight. It's ridiculous that I have to do this for women who have never met me, but I guess some people just have nothing better to do with their lives than bitch. So here's the story, broken down for you all.
1. Aged 14, I was suspended from school after an incident with a fellow pupil who had been bullying me since Year 7. I was taken to a specialist clinic for suspected anger management. Whilst there, I underwent various test and the results came out as: speech and language difficulties, suspected autism spectrum disorder and attachment issues.
2. I went through the rest of school without thinking much about the informal diagnosis - after all, I had GCSEs and A Levels to do, as well as trying to get to the 6th form and university that I wanted.
3. Aged 19, I entered my second year of university and felt that - as I was already pursuing an answer to one major question in my life - I might as well get a formal diagnosis. I began proceedings by going to my GP, Dr Green, and asking him how I should go about this. He referred me to Asperger East Anglia, a specialist autism clinic in Norwich.
4. I went for an AQ test (Autism Quotient) at the clinic that I was referred to, where I was given a result of 36. Women who are not autistic normally score 28, and those who have autism usually score 32. My score of 36 gave my tester, Ms Howitt, reason to believe that I did in fact have "Asperger Syndrome or some other form of high-functioning autism".
5. Ms Howitt referred me to a clinical psychologist, Dr Roper, who has so far taken me through numerous tests in a bid to find out what particular strand of autism I have, and how severe it is.
So there you have it, people. Had I not made friends with people who would call me a liar - *Lara, *Sissy, *Amelie and *Rach to name some of many people - people who would bully me and make me look like an immature child who needs to "grow up and get some stability" in my life, I would not have to divulge details of a condition that I would give the entire world not to have.
I did not ask to have autism, nor did I ask for any of the other conditions that I have. I simply live with them and do my best to improve them as far as I can. Where my autism is concerned, I believe that I have made great strides in my bid to improve it, as you can see:
1. I finished secondary school and passed all my A Levels.
2. I successfully applied for university, and got onto the degree course that I wanted.
3. I have managed to get a job at Pizza Hut, where I am expected to work with the general public every day, and have kept this job since 7th April 2012.
OK, let's draw a line under that and move on to better things.
Today I ordered a T-shirt and mug from Vistaprint, and only paid £4.86 postage! True, it will take 3 weeks to arrive, but that isn't an issue - not like I'm in a rush! It is also exactly 15 months until I marry my lovely lovely fiance Jonathan, and I am very very excited about it! Once we've sorted out finances and planning with my parents, we will start to book things and get the ball rolling, but for now we have most of our quotes and are just waiting to see if our reception venue can lower their price a little (in line with our budget!).
Other than that, I have just been enjoying my life really. For once, I am happy to be alive and have not thought about self-harming. I have joined a lovely forum dedicated to people who struggle in society, and the people who I have met there have been fantastic - I cannot thank them enough!
I have also started two new blogs, as some of you may have seen. They are called A Witch's Musings and Mrs Penny Pincher, and I am hoping that they will be a success!
Anyway, that's it from me - look out for happier posts soon!
Ciao xxx
*names have been changed on the advice of my closest friends.
1. Aged 14, I was suspended from school after an incident with a fellow pupil who had been bullying me since Year 7. I was taken to a specialist clinic for suspected anger management. Whilst there, I underwent various test and the results came out as: speech and language difficulties, suspected autism spectrum disorder and attachment issues.
2. I went through the rest of school without thinking much about the informal diagnosis - after all, I had GCSEs and A Levels to do, as well as trying to get to the 6th form and university that I wanted.
3. Aged 19, I entered my second year of university and felt that - as I was already pursuing an answer to one major question in my life - I might as well get a formal diagnosis. I began proceedings by going to my GP, Dr Green, and asking him how I should go about this. He referred me to Asperger East Anglia, a specialist autism clinic in Norwich.
4. I went for an AQ test (Autism Quotient) at the clinic that I was referred to, where I was given a result of 36. Women who are not autistic normally score 28, and those who have autism usually score 32. My score of 36 gave my tester, Ms Howitt, reason to believe that I did in fact have "Asperger Syndrome or some other form of high-functioning autism".
5. Ms Howitt referred me to a clinical psychologist, Dr Roper, who has so far taken me through numerous tests in a bid to find out what particular strand of autism I have, and how severe it is.
So there you have it, people. Had I not made friends with people who would call me a liar - *Lara, *Sissy, *Amelie and *Rach to name some of many people - people who would bully me and make me look like an immature child who needs to "grow up and get some stability" in my life, I would not have to divulge details of a condition that I would give the entire world not to have.
I did not ask to have autism, nor did I ask for any of the other conditions that I have. I simply live with them and do my best to improve them as far as I can. Where my autism is concerned, I believe that I have made great strides in my bid to improve it, as you can see:
1. I finished secondary school and passed all my A Levels.
2. I successfully applied for university, and got onto the degree course that I wanted.
3. I have managed to get a job at Pizza Hut, where I am expected to work with the general public every day, and have kept this job since 7th April 2012.
OK, let's draw a line under that and move on to better things.
Today I ordered a T-shirt and mug from Vistaprint, and only paid £4.86 postage! True, it will take 3 weeks to arrive, but that isn't an issue - not like I'm in a rush! It is also exactly 15 months until I marry my lovely lovely fiance Jonathan, and I am very very excited about it! Once we've sorted out finances and planning with my parents, we will start to book things and get the ball rolling, but for now we have most of our quotes and are just waiting to see if our reception venue can lower their price a little (in line with our budget!).
Other than that, I have just been enjoying my life really. For once, I am happy to be alive and have not thought about self-harming. I have joined a lovely forum dedicated to people who struggle in society, and the people who I have met there have been fantastic - I cannot thank them enough!
I have also started two new blogs, as some of you may have seen. They are called A Witch's Musings and Mrs Penny Pincher, and I am hoping that they will be a success!
Anyway, that's it from me - look out for happier posts soon!
Ciao xxx
*names have been changed on the advice of my closest friends.
Friday, 18 May 2012
Latest News!
What's been happening with me lately? Well, not a lot really. I had my dress fitting with shoes today, and it turns out the dress is 2 inches too long, despite me wearing 5 inch heels! Oh well, c'est la vie I suppose, and if it needs altering it needs altering.
I've started a new blog and am thinking of starting another one. My newest blog is called Mrs Penny Pincher and is about my attempts to save up money to buy a house or at least put a deposit down on one! Jon has some savings, but I'd like to be able to help out - and since I've got a job now, it makes sense for me to contribute something towards it! I know I'm paying for my own wedding, but in my head it makes sense!
What else? Well, Jon's parents have agreed to pay for half of our reception, which is a godsend as it means we won't have a massive bill on our hands! I'm still going to try and haggle the price down as it's a bit silly to ask people to pay lots of money, even if it's only for one day - especially as if Jon's siblings get married his parents will have 3 weddings to sort out! Sometimes I'm glad I'm an only child ...
Other than that, there's not a lot going on in my life. My best friend Laura came up to Norwich on the 17th to do our "engagement" shoot, which basically ended up as the three of us having a massive laugh and general tomfoolery. It was lovely to see her, especially as the last time we properly saw each other was nearly 4 years ago! It was a very poignant time for us, especially as it came the day after Jon's 21st birthday, which was the 16th May. Yes, my man is now 21!!! Goodness, he's getting old haha.
There isn't really much else to report, other than that tomorrow I start my first official non-probation shift at Pizza Hut!!! So grateful to my boss for helping me to pass my probation and for encouraging me when I felt ready to quit. Despite my depression becoming easier and easier to set off, my boss and my co-workers (and of course my friends and family) have been tremendous and really lovely to me.
Not much else, so I'm signing off now. Don't forget to check out Mrs Penny Pincher!
Ciao xx
I've started a new blog and am thinking of starting another one. My newest blog is called Mrs Penny Pincher and is about my attempts to save up money to buy a house or at least put a deposit down on one! Jon has some savings, but I'd like to be able to help out - and since I've got a job now, it makes sense for me to contribute something towards it! I know I'm paying for my own wedding, but in my head it makes sense!
What else? Well, Jon's parents have agreed to pay for half of our reception, which is a godsend as it means we won't have a massive bill on our hands! I'm still going to try and haggle the price down as it's a bit silly to ask people to pay lots of money, even if it's only for one day - especially as if Jon's siblings get married his parents will have 3 weddings to sort out! Sometimes I'm glad I'm an only child ...
Other than that, there's not a lot going on in my life. My best friend Laura came up to Norwich on the 17th to do our "engagement" shoot, which basically ended up as the three of us having a massive laugh and general tomfoolery. It was lovely to see her, especially as the last time we properly saw each other was nearly 4 years ago! It was a very poignant time for us, especially as it came the day after Jon's 21st birthday, which was the 16th May. Yes, my man is now 21!!! Goodness, he's getting old haha.
There isn't really much else to report, other than that tomorrow I start my first official non-probation shift at Pizza Hut!!! So grateful to my boss for helping me to pass my probation and for encouraging me when I felt ready to quit. Despite my depression becoming easier and easier to set off, my boss and my co-workers (and of course my friends and family) have been tremendous and really lovely to me.
Not much else, so I'm signing off now. Don't forget to check out Mrs Penny Pincher!
Ciao xx
Friday, 11 May 2012
I'm Back!
Hey guys! I'm back on the blogging scene, and boy have I missed it! There will be posts on my beauty blog and my fashion blog, so look out for them. So, what have I been doing lately? Well, I quit my job. The official reason is that waitressing just "isn't for me", but those who know me know the real reason I quit and I'm grateful for their support.
In happier news, Jon and I went to see our reception venue on Thursday. It was absolutely stunning, and I fell in love with it on sight. As you can see, the photos speak for themselves, and hopefully we'll book it (once the price is right!). We were given a complimentary dinner with a glass of Prosecco champagne, which was really lovely - their food is absolutely stunning!!!
This is the outside of our venue, the Maids Head Hotel.
Below is the Oak Suite, which I didn't much go for as it's quite dark.
Below is the bar ... again, didn't much go for it.
Below is the Wine Press Restaurant, which is where we hope to have our arrival drinks.
This is the Minstrel Suite, where we hope to have our reception.
As you can see, the venue is fantastic. We've also had great fun with our wedding stationery - our RSVP cards arrived today, so we're all set to post things! We're sending out our Save The Dates and Alzheimer's Society donation cards on 21st August 2012 (cos we're just that cheesy!) and then our formal invites, menu choices, RSVP cards and any other things people will need will go out in January 2013, to be responded to by 30th March 2013.
Also, I got a Nightwish T-shirt! It's their Dark Passion Play one, and I love it to bits! Might have cost 21-odd euros, but so worth it!
OK, I'm gonna get on with the other blogs.
Ciao xxx
In happier news, Jon and I went to see our reception venue on Thursday. It was absolutely stunning, and I fell in love with it on sight. As you can see, the photos speak for themselves, and hopefully we'll book it (once the price is right!). We were given a complimentary dinner with a glass of Prosecco champagne, which was really lovely - their food is absolutely stunning!!!
This is the outside of our venue, the Maids Head Hotel.
Below is the Oak Suite, which I didn't much go for as it's quite dark.
Below is the bar ... again, didn't much go for it.
Below is the Wine Press Restaurant, which is where we hope to have our arrival drinks.
This is the Minstrel Suite, where we hope to have our reception.
As you can see, the venue is fantastic. We've also had great fun with our wedding stationery - our RSVP cards arrived today, so we're all set to post things! We're sending out our Save The Dates and Alzheimer's Society donation cards on 21st August 2012 (cos we're just that cheesy!) and then our formal invites, menu choices, RSVP cards and any other things people will need will go out in January 2013, to be responded to by 30th March 2013.
Also, I got a Nightwish T-shirt! It's their Dark Passion Play one, and I love it to bits! Might have cost 21-odd euros, but so worth it!
OK, I'm gonna get on with the other blogs.
Ciao xxx
Wednesday, 2 May 2012
Update!!!
OK, first things first: update. We've sorted out our church and reception venue, and my parents have really nicely offered to pay for both which is amazing!!! We're really happy about that, and have also got my new engagement ring:
I've also found myself a job, working as a waitress at Pizza Hut! Snazzy, huh? I love my work, and even though my legs often complain at me, it's well worth it for the money and fun that abounds! Sometimes my Aspergers gets in the way and makes talking to strangers/team member hard, but I'm really lucky that both my manager and co-workers are there to help me out and make sure I'm all right. Hopefully with time it will get easier. On that note, I also took some abuse over having Aspergers from someone (who I won't name) because I didn't go about being diagnosed the "right" way and because apparently I don't display "classic symptoms".
Can I point something out? As this link will show, there are many things to consider when diagnosing a woman with Aspergers, and women are often not diagnosed until later on in life (mid to late teens). I was informally diagnosed aged 16, then spent 3 years working to get my GCSEs and A Levels (cos I cared more about my education than my mental state). I have now started seeking answers, and I have them. I have Asperger Syndrome, and that is the end of the matter. I am not lying, nor am I hallucinating or seeking attention. I am simply a young woman trying to make her way in a world that often resembles a social minefield.
Now on to more interesting and fun topics. Here is a photo of our church, St Thomas Heigham:
I've also found myself a job, working as a waitress at Pizza Hut! Snazzy, huh? I love my work, and even though my legs often complain at me, it's well worth it for the money and fun that abounds! Sometimes my Aspergers gets in the way and makes talking to strangers/team member hard, but I'm really lucky that both my manager and co-workers are there to help me out and make sure I'm all right. Hopefully with time it will get easier. On that note, I also took some abuse over having Aspergers from someone (who I won't name) because I didn't go about being diagnosed the "right" way and because apparently I don't display "classic symptoms".
Can I point something out? As this link will show, there are many things to consider when diagnosing a woman with Aspergers, and women are often not diagnosed until later on in life (mid to late teens). I was informally diagnosed aged 16, then spent 3 years working to get my GCSEs and A Levels (cos I cared more about my education than my mental state). I have now started seeking answers, and I have them. I have Asperger Syndrome, and that is the end of the matter. I am not lying, nor am I hallucinating or seeking attention. I am simply a young woman trying to make her way in a world that often resembles a social minefield.
Now on to more interesting and fun topics. Here is a photo of our church, St Thomas Heigham:
As you can see, it's a beautiful church and looks really lovely. True, it's on a main road, but it doesn't matter to me because I can still have photos of my ceremony as it occurs, and photos of the reception and dinner. This is another thing I took some stick for because my faith apparently means I can't get married in church. Well, hear this! I spoke to my priest and told him I am 1/3 Wiccan, 1/3 Buddhist and 1/3 Christian and he said it does not matter what faith I am as long as I am committed to the marriage. Your religion does not make a difference to where you want to get married, it simply means that you are different. I am getting married in church and I'm not entirely Christian. Whoop de effing do!
So in short: half good, half bad. I've taken a lot of crap for being who I am, but I will not be browbeaten and I will not back down from my opinion. People may not like me for it, but that is not my problem. I am who I am and I won't change for a bunch of people who think they can lord it over me. I will not be scared of posting what's on my mind and I certainly will not suck up to people who don't know me and never will.
Here endeth the rant.
Ciao xxx
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